Cancer Clinic- Day two

I love the Cardston Temple. It is my home temple, but it is also my favorite. This morning I was getting ready to study my scriptures, and to be honest the last little while my scripture study has been less than stellar. I was finding myself having a hard time concentrating and not really knowing what I should be looking for. When I said my prayers I ask Heavenly Father for direction in my care, and wanting some assurances that I was doing the right thing by having all these toxins go through my body. (More on that later) So then I needed to know where I should start studying. You see we're in Mormon for Family study, I'm in Mosiah for Sunday School study, and in Alma for personal. I'm everywhere. And I'm rather a methodical person and need a starting point for this particular topic of study, which is by the way, Healing and what I can do specifically. So after praying about that I remembered that earlier this year I had found a scripture reading chart on the internet called "Scripture University 2008 schedule, read the entire standard works once". Everything is broken down into days, so I went to May 9th, and opened my scriptures to 1 Chronicles 17. I got as far as the second verse and my answer was given to me as to the direction of my care. "Then Nathan said unto David, Do all that is in thine heart; for God is with thee." David was asking Nathan to inquire of the Lord regarding a certain question, and this is what the Lord said. This is an answer to prayer for me, because I have so many things that are in my heart that I think are right for my care, chemo/radiation being one of them. Also eating whole foods as close to nature as possible and getting exercise. I felt like in this scripture the spirit was telling me that Heavenly Father will support me because he knows whats in my heart is right.
So today at the Cancer Clinic I got taught all about chemo and what it does. Myths and Truths. I learned all about the side effects, and what to do. I met more wonderful people, especially one man who I actually know from when we lived on the West side in Lethbridge, he and his family were in our ward, and I knew his wife quite well. He is one of the pharmacists at the Cancer Clinic and he came in and talked to me all about the drugs and what to expect. He was so nice and very up beat. He also told me that despite the unfortunate name that my chemo doctor has, he is one of the best. He comes down from Edmonton every Monday from the Cross Cancer Institute and is very respected not just there but all over the province. He also told me about my radiation doctor who is also very good, and very thorough. That made me feel much better. Everyone wants to know that they are in good hands, and not in the hands of sub par people.
One of the kits I received today was my bio hazard cleaning kit. This is given to me just in case my bottle that I'm hooked up to at home happens to break or the tubing happens to rip. In this kit is a gown, gloves, goggles, and special cleaning cloths or cleaner or something to help me handle the chemo drugs should they get loose, so to say. I told the nurse that so many precautions had to be taken to protect myself if it spills, yet this stuff is going into my veins? HHHMMMMMMM!!!!!!! Doesn't that make you kind of want to run? You'd think that with all the money they put to Cancer research every year, for all these years they could maybe come up with something better. Now you extremists out there that are saying, "well there already is a cure, the pharmaceutical companies are covering it up, and their all part of a big conspiracy", keep your shirt on. And don't post back to me that I should run or something like that. I know for me that this is the right thing to do, and you know what they watch you so closely, I mean I'm pretty much going to be living at the hospital for the next 6 months, everyone already knows me by name and are so willing to help with whatever I'm concerned about. And you know what they are the first ones to say that this is not what we wish to give, but it works for most people in my particular stage of cancer it works and will give me many more years. The thing is NO ONE can predict with any certainty what Cancer is going to do. Sometimes it goes away, sometimes it goes dormant, and sometimes it comes back. Many positive strides have been made in the fight against cancer especially in the benefits of living a healthy lifestyle, and eating close to nature. And they tell you to do that, the pamphlets tell you to do that. Okay I'm ranting, I need to finish.
I'm back to the Cancer clinic tomorrow to get a CT Scan and see my Radiation Oncologist. Another half day at my new second home.
Oh, and many thanks to my wonderful Sister-in-law who brought me a chopper blender. Green Smoothie's here I come.