Telling Family

Telling family without crying is really hard. Not that I'm particularly scared, but I don't want my children to have to cope with something like this. It's hard enough for me not to "put the cart before the horse", let alone my children and husband who are now my support. You tell them it's small, that it'll get taken care of. Trying to convince them that everything is going to be okay, when inside yourself your praying desperately for the same outcome.
I know that out there in blog world that are many who are blogging about their cancer experience. As I read their blogs I am amazed at how positive they are, and full of life. Isn't it amazing how something like cancer can make us finally start living. Yesterday after my hubby and I got home from the hospital, I changed into my PJ's and went outside and sat on the step. It was a beautiful day and I wanted to enjoy it so I did. It's a rare thing in Alberta to be able to go outside in March with no coat and enjoy the weather. I did not want to miss that opportunity.
I love my family, we are a forever family, living our lives according to the doctrines of Christ. AND thank goodness for his doctrines that get us through times like this.