"That you may run and not be weary and walk and not faint"
Thursday, April 26, 2012
April 26th, 2012
It's been well over a month since I last posted and so much has happened. I'm going to briefly give an update so we can move on.
March 26th I had my MRI, when I got home from the hospital there was a message on my machine to call the hospital. I thought that maybe they had forgot something or that I had. When I called the hospital back it was actually a surgery date- April 2nd. WAIT!!!!! I thought my surgery would be at least a couple of weeks after the MRI. My surgeon hasn't even been able to look at it yet. ONE WEEK away???? "I can't breath". Okay; so after I got myself calmed down. I told myself that this is good, sooner rather than later, this is good.
March 28th- Pre-op appointment at the hospital. Blood work, ECG, visit with nurse etc. The only question I asked was, what drug can I have the morning of surgery to calm me down? Because I was literally afraid that I was going to run away.
March 30th- Appointment with Enterostomal Therapy Nurse, to talk about my temporary Ilieostomy that I would be receiving. After this appointment my husband and I went back to our vehicle and I had a melt down. My whole body shook as I balled. My wonderful husband, who should get an award, cried with me. After sitting in the car for a long time, we finally had the ability to drive away. We went to the movie "The Hunger Games". I loved the books, and maybe on a different day I maybe would have enjoyed the movie more, but all it did for me was take my mind off of my new reality. After the movie we went to Five Guys for my last meal and went home.
March 31st- General Conference and Bowel Prep diet for surgery with a few shots of Atomic Bomb fluid
April 1st- Same as above. In a future post I will talk about the tremendous strength I received from General Conference and the tremendous spiritual support I received not just from my family and friends but from beyond the veil.
April 2nd- SURGERY DAY- ( future post)
April 3rd - 7th- Hospital stay with "beds of torture".
April 7th- HOME DAY
April 13th- FRIDAY- results day- 4 of the 28 nodes that the surgeon took were positive for cancer. CHEMO here I come. Oh and out come staples
April 24th- Appointment with Ostomy nurse and rest of staples come out. And FYI, there will be no pictures of my tummy during this journey, my body image has been destroyed enough. For you voyeurs out there, you can find some pictures on the internet for your enjoyment.
SO here I am, 3 weeks post-op and waiting for May 7th, my first cancer appointment, where I will get recommendations on what they want to do to me. To be honest I'm not really scared at this point. I know lots of people who have dealt with cancer, chemo, hair loss and everything else that goes with it and they are still here. I don't really know what to expect because I know that everyone's experience is different. All I know is that I am in the Lord's hands, this is his will for me right now, and I hope that I can learn everything that he wants me to during this experience. I also hope that I will continue to be able to serve in my calling in my church and to be of service to others.
My Mission Statement is to create a blog where my journey will be of help to others in finding there way back to wellness.
It's been well over a month since I last posted and so much has happened. I'm going to briefly give an update so we can move on.
March 26th I had my MRI, when I got home from the hospital there was a message on my machine to call the hospital. I thought that maybe they had forgot something or that I had. When I called the hospital back it was actually a surgery date- April 2nd. WAIT!!!!! I thought my surgery would be at least a couple of weeks after the MRI. My surgeon hasn't even been able to look at it yet. ONE WEEK away???? "I can't breath". Okay; so after I got myself calmed down. I told myself that this is good, sooner rather than later, this is good.
March 28th- Pre-op appointment at the hospital. Blood work, ECG, visit with nurse etc. The only question I asked was, what drug can I have the morning of surgery to calm me down? Because I was literally afraid that I was going to run away.
March 30th- Appointment with Enterostomal Therapy Nurse, to talk about my temporary Ilieostomy that I would be receiving. After this appointment my husband and I went back to our vehicle and I had a melt down. My whole body shook as I balled. My wonderful husband, who should get an award, cried with me. After sitting in the car for a long time, we finally had the ability to drive away. We went to the movie "The Hunger Games". I loved the books, and maybe on a different day I maybe would have enjoyed the movie more, but all it did for me was take my mind off of my new reality. After the movie we went to Five Guys for my last meal and went home.
March 31st- General Conference and Bowel Prep diet for surgery with a few shots of Atomic Bomb fluid
April 1st- Same as above. In a future post I will talk about the tremendous strength I received from General Conference and the tremendous spiritual support I received not just from my family and friends but from beyond the veil.
April 2nd- SURGERY DAY- ( future post)
April 3rd - 7th- Hospital stay with "beds of torture".
April 7th- HOME DAY
April 13th- FRIDAY- results day- 4 of the 28 nodes that the surgeon took were positive for cancer. CHEMO here I come. Oh and out come staples
April 24th- Appointment with Ostomy nurse and rest of staples come out. And FYI, there will be no pictures of my tummy during this journey, my body image has been destroyed enough. For you voyeurs out there, you can find some pictures on the internet for your enjoyment.
SO here I am, 3 weeks post-op and waiting for May 7th, my first cancer appointment, where I will get recommendations on what they want to do to me. To be honest I'm not really scared at this point. I know lots of people who have dealt with cancer, chemo, hair loss and everything else that goes with it and they are still here. I don't really know what to expect because I know that everyone's experience is different. All I know is that I am in the Lord's hands, this is his will for me right now, and I hope that I can learn everything that he wants me to during this experience. I also hope that I will continue to be able to serve in my calling in my church and to be of service to others.
My Mission Statement is to create a blog where my journey will be of help to others in finding there way back to wellness.
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